After a Week...

Later on he asked me out for lunch at the nearest McD, thinking that he may start the ice breaking and make it possible for us to hold each other hand. But to no avail, it boils down to nothing.

He's happy to know that we are of the same circles, but he rejected me once and for all to persue his personal interest, leaving me in despair and lost. What im i suppose to do then. Can i be able to just forget about him? Why in the first place i start all these unhappy events and make my life miserable.

It lasted for a month, the begging and tearing, im proud to say that i tried my best but to no avail, i got nothing. Not even his care, passion or lust for me. I'm i selfish, to make him mine? Or i just has a lust on him? But if it is a lust, i can hook up with any guys i want, why i have to put myself in miseries waiting and wanting him. Is not worth it, Lex, is not worth it.

One weekend, he came to apartment and we chat, indifference, he seems so far from me. Protecting himself against a predator like me, i would describe. As we went out for lunch later on, im just able to admire his characters, thinking of him being with me for the rest of my life, feeling sad, and lost, what can i do?

We parted to our own ways later on, he had to do deal with some personal stuffs, so we go our own ways...turning back to have a look at him driving off. The bitter, pain and sorrow is unbearable... lost in my sins and lust. I wanted him more.

As time goes by, i want to shake him off my mind, please lex, don think about him anymore, it will just make your life difficult. But how? How im i gonna shake him off...i met him at work most of the time, He's there always, in the office, in the meeting and even facing at me. Why Lord, you have to torture me in this way. Is even bitter then being burn alive.

But now, all i have to say, is to indulge in things that will forget about him, pls lexxie, is not worth it, i hope there's a cure for it, to mend my heart, to dry up my tears, to forget about this love, THE FORSAKEN LOVE!!!