After a week or so, knowing that he's in the circle make my heart skipped. There's always suprises that may be a blessing or can be disastrous. How do i know he is in the circle, don't even ask, i'm not sure either. just the ticklish feelings i felt when i get close by - he is definately in the circle, my gaydar can sense it.
Tried to get him to talk last week about me being interested in him, but he denied and gave excuses and asked me to wait till after the holidays and i did. I waited for him, for him to speak to me today, but nothing happens.
for all the longings and miseries i felt for the past week, boils down to nothing today, he didn't even take the initiative to start the conversation and why should I do. I felt as if i was a stupid fool under his charm, haha, i know he's charming, tat's why i like him since the first day i saw him. Cute? gorgeous? Hot? I'm not sure either, is like he has it all.
Why in the first place i make myself to suffer like this in another unpredictable, unrealistic and impossible relationship. the way he sms's me answered all questions, i.e. he's not even interested in me...he don't even bothered to have some chatting with me, as if im really a fool and an idiot faggot, for God's sake!
Leave him alone, that's what i wanted, but how i deny this feeling, it still will not let me go. Hope that my feelings will fade away quickly as time passed. - AP
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